Byez.

Relocated somewhere else.

Private.

"Where only we can see;"

Good luck to everyone.
Bored O:

Esther.

To you guys.

Heyy you guys.


I wanna make use of our blog to tell you guys stuff.


That I'm really hurt about what happened today.


I feel really upset. And angry. But more upset and hurt than angry.


I don't think that you guys will ever read this. But I just think that you guys need to know how I feel about today. It'll only be fair to you guys if I do.

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Today, when you guys boarded that bus. And when Diana called me. And you guys laughed; smiled. I didn't know what to say. Except "whatthehell".
I didn't really want to face you guys after that.
I felt that, yeah, im late, its my fault. But even still, shouldn't you guys have the courtesy to call or sms or something to tell me that you guys are leaving?
Seriously, I don't want to talk to you guys anymore.
You guys just crushed the trust that I had in you guys, built over these months. You guys crushed it in just a few minutes, or even just a few seconds.

Can you guys try having it in my shoes, from my perspective?
Im carrying stuff that fills both my hands. I have difficulty in even walking a few steps.
I still have to travel. I have my stomach cramps. I have my difficulties.
You guys didn't even bother finding out about what happened. Just walked away like that.
Yes, this small little action made me feel like you guys are not my true friends. That you guys are selfish.
Ask yourself.
Are you guys like that?
Would y'all want me to do the same to you when you face the same difficulties?
Let me give you guys an example. I always make sure that Ruilin boards 502 first, before I leave, even if I have to. I don't want you guys to do the opposite to me.
Try staying far away.
I lead a hard life. Without "friends" doing this.
Friends are important to me. Because seriously, to be honest, im not on very good terms with my family. I don't talk to them everyday. And I rarely get to see them.
Thats why I treasure every friendship alot.
Especially with my good friends. But what has happened today made me feel like you guys don't care about me.
That im someone who's not important. That im someone who can be abandoned easily.
That im someone whom you can NOT CARE ABOUT.

My heart is bleeding now, with a gaping wound there.
I can't find any words to describe it now.
Even though you guys have apologised to me, I kinda feel that you guys apologise for the sake of apologising.
Y'all will never understand the feeling of being lost.
Ive always felt very left out.
Today, you guys have just added salt on that wound.
You guys have made me think that I don't want you guys as friends anymore.

I find it hard to trust you guys already.

I hope that you guys will think about what I wrote in this post. Because personally, I think that this post means alot.
If I still have any ounce of space left in your hearts, think about it.
Try looking at it from my position.
I don't really want to talk to you guys on msn anymore.
I feel very slutty. Like im always initiating all these kind of things. I don't want to do this anymore.
I feel like you guys are making use of me. Taking advantage of me.
Through these little things, I know what kind of people you are.
No offence.
But I don't want to talk to you guys.
Even though after y'all apologised, I started talking to y'all again.
But deep down in my heart, I know that I was lying to myself, and also to you guys. That wasn't really me.

I shouldn't have made any friends from the start, especially with you guys.

I should have been a loner.

Trust myself; thats the best policy.

I know, im a terrible person.

You guys just told me that.

Thanks.

I don't know what you guys are going to do after y'all read this.
But you guys have disappointed me utterly today.
Im speechless already.

This isn't a guilt post.
Just needed to find a way to tell you guys how I feel.
Don't take it to heart, if you don't care about me.
Y'all can just ignore this post, if you don't care about me.
Seriously, just tell me if im being too much.
Because its all my fault.

Esther

thinking...

Hello DDR & friends of DDR! :/
Its Donut posting here!
Which isn't any much surprise yeah. [:
Oh no, I forgot what I wanted to post about. Hang on, let me think.
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thinking...
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Okay, nevermind, I shall post about it when I remember it. In the meantime, I shall display my power of randomness and crap about some other stuffs first. :D
Hmmm, Ive decided to be quieter and listen to other opinions' more. I guess I've been influenced by Ruilin **.
I know sometimes im weird, strange, fierce, obnoxious, unreasonable and all those things that i am, and sometimes I throw tantrums at you guys even though I didn't really intend to. I really apologize to you both of doing all that, and affecting you!
I really am!
Diana's gonna go to Korea on 13th to 18th. I'm gonna miss you, my dear beloved Daisy! :'(
One less good friend to crap to, to be random to, to LOL with, to chat with, to go crazy with, to scream with and to drink bubble tea with. :'(
But after all, you're sortof realizing a wish, aren't you? Going to Korea and stuff...
Poor Ruilin ** and me, stuck in Singapore. ;'( I haven't even sat a plane before.
Extra :'( !!
But nevermind, at least I get to meet up with primary school friends.
I've learnt to be more optimistic from you, Diana! Hehe. Sortof bah. If you don't do your homework, you'll be optimistic : Aiyah, tcher won't collect de lah.
:D
I hope you're not offended like you always are when I say stuff like that.
(In fact, I hope you're laughing, okay?!)
Hahahas.
Ohwells, how, after crapping so long, I still don't remember what I want to post about.
OHYEAH! I just remembered ;)
I wanted to talk about RV.
Yeah, yeah!
Well, we know that our good friends are in RV. Thats part of the reason why I want to transfer. Well, actually, I only have 2 good friends in there. Hahahas.
I guess you guys know that I want to transfer to RV, and I think that with my scores and grades, I can, actually.
But, partly because of you guys, Im not gonna! (Say yay now!)
Hehe.
Another part of the reason is that Im already settled down in Commonwealth, and I don't really want to have to adapt to a new environment, although there's a new school compound and its so near to my house, and the guys there are more mature.
Plus, I don't really want to go through so many procedures: I have to take an application form, fill it in and submit it, then take a test, then go for an interview.
Im tired; Im lazy.
I don't want to go through so many things and make things complicated.
Its very troublesome, agree?
So, yeah, my parents and I have discussed and agreed that I should stay in Commonwealth for the time being, because since I score "well" there and have already settled down and stuff. Commonwealth may be a good choice, after all. [:
So yeah, I'll be staying here for the next coming 3 years, I guess, unless circumstances change. :D

Okays, moving on!
Homework? Nah, it sucks. Hope you've done acelearning, Diana. > <
Okay, er..
Tomorrow's outing! Yeah. Hmmm, are you guys excited?
Maybe not really bah, cos we've had about a million outings already. Hahas.
I like going out w you guys ^^
Hmm, tomorrow going to library first, then bowling (woots) and then to my house to make some yummy lunch [:
Although I don't know about you guys, but Im damn looking forward to this, for 2 reasons.
One, making my own lunch (esp w you guys) gives me a sense of satisfaction.
Two, come on! Its an outing w YOU GUYS, my besties :D
Hehe. I've just thought of something...

Are we GOOD friends, or BEST friends?
I know that there's a difference in the levels and stuff.
This may sound childish and immature, and prolly even kiddy, but. YOU GUYS ARE MY BEST FRIENDS, AND I HOPE THAT I AM TOO ^^
(Blush blush)
Hehe.
Through all the times that we've been through this year...
I'll never forget. ;)
Although there was a period of time when I felt hatred (I shall not explain!) towards you guys and maybe vented anger on you guys, but I've straigtened my thoughts and I really am sorry if Ive hurt you guys.
Maybe this is too chim. -.-
Hahas. I hope you guys won't take to heart the bad stuff I maybe have done to you guys?
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*shakes hands* Besties!!
Hehe.
Okay, I think I've made a record by posting the longest post ever in the history of the DDR blog.
Once again, I'd like to thank you guys. And remember that I'll always be here for you guys forever [:

Esther.

BOOMZ !

When I feel naughty, I'll wear something red, something loud, you know, something like BOOMZ!

:D
I love this manzxc.
Oh, I also love "zxc-ing".
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Yeappyeapp.
Had a mini-DDR outing on 26th October, last Monday.
Bowled bowled bowled first, then cooked cooked and cooked. :D
Okays, enough crapping.
Time to do a reflection.
Its comeing to the end of the school year!
(Although I dunno if I feel happy or not, because I wanna stay Sec One forever. I mean in the time freezing kind, not the retain kind. :/)
So, yeah.
I think this year has been quite fruitful for all of us.
Let's count our main accomplishments and achievements, shall we. :D
Hmmms, lets see.

Formation of our clique, DDR! Woots.

Invention of DDR Truth(tm)! [By Donut]

Many lots lots lots of hilarious, embarassing and humourous moments that we'll always cherish, and never ever ever forget. :D

This post is dedicated to the two of my goodfriends in commonwealthsecschool :
Thanks for treasuring the moments we had, you guys.
It was really great getting to know y'all, and we had our moments, yeah. :D
I just want you two to know that Im here for you, no matter what happens.
When you feel that all is lost, don't be discouraged - tell me and look on.
When you feel that nothing is going right, (or you're going "left" xD), you know you can always drop me an sms, or give me a call.
I'll always be here for you guys. :D
From family problems, to relationship / love problems, I always hope that I will always be the first to share your burdens (or joys. Of course I hope its more joys that you'll share [:).
So yeah, this year has been very meaningful for me, and also a very experiencing year, transitioning from a primary girls' school to a secondary mixed school. Sometiems I know that Im hard on you guys, and I know that sometimes Im ..
(Ignorant)(Foolish)(Silly)(Stupid)(Crazy)(Wild)(Random)(Irritating)(Annoying)
Yeah, and I know that you guys never gave up on me, despite what problems or difficulties I faced. You guys have taught me stuffs (despite academically or non-academically) and Im really grateful & thankful & glad that you guys have helped me.
Y'all forever be my best mates yeah. [:
So, I hope that no matter what happens in the future, or even now. Y'all will think of me as a pillar of comfort and strength, to rely on in times of trouble. [:

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Okay, its so mushy. Hahahas. O:
Okays, but yeah, I mean every word I said (or rather, typed). Thanks so much, you guys. :D
I shall now end the post by posting a DDR picture. :D

HELLO PEEPS!
I AM DAISY DIANA
AHAHAHAS.

Okays i'm finally posting sfter so long cause u must understand that i am beri beri BUSY!!!!!
HAHHAS,
Okays hi peeps.

I WANNNA GO OUT WITH DDR!!!!!
But i'm always the one who says like
"My parents dun allow"
"I have no $$"
etc etc
HAIX.
Stuck in the boring house and cannot go out.
HAIC.
But anywayi just went shopping ytd
AHAHAHAHS
YOU ALL SHOULD SEE MY SUPER CUTE HELLO KITTYSHOE!
yay yay yay
Finally no exams.

But as some peeps say, wednesday is our dooms day cause all the papers would come flying in your direction and hit you by the face.
SMACK!
BANG!
BOOM!

Kays i'm officially mad and please bring me to IMH.

AHAHAHAHs.

CRAZY

I LOVE DDR TRUTH.
Do you?
Its like a game where POOF!
all our secrets are reveled.
It leaves you heart thudding
with excitement and a tiny bit of fear
but you can't help thinking,
should i or not sneer at her?
And it leaves you with a headache,
cause you have to think hard
Of something,
That would leave them in embarrasment.

CRAP LAH.
WHAT THE H am i writing?
some stupid crappy poem?!
AHAHAHS, thats not really what i feel about DDR truth, its just like a random poem, yeah.
HAHAHA.

Okays yeah i think i really should be sent to IMH.

IWANNAPLAYDDRTRUTH!!!

AHAHAHs

OH oH
I wanted to spill out the beans about the bowling thing
but
Farha said to keep it a secret.
AHAHAHAS.
So i should not say.

OKays happy 5 day holidays!!!!

LOVE THE GREAT AND CRAZY DAISY FLOWER.

PS : I LOVE DDR and DDR TRUTH

Updateeeee~

Some updates to revive this blog. Ddonut posting, as usual.
(Sighs.)





Look at how dirty the class is. Tsktsk.


Xinyi hard at work, helping a helpless guide (fyi, its Diana,) sew on her badge! [:

Ahahahas. Thats it for random class pics.



MACBOOK PROOOOOO!
(Be jealous, now!)


Er... okay... more random class pictures.
The heart-shaped-hand-posed by Daisy.


Taken last Friday. Mingzhong <3
(Written by yours truly.)





Okay.. super random pictures of the sky before the big big storm. :B

Okays, well I guess thats it for pictures.
I want DDR to watch & enjoy Mingzhong! Lawls.
And thanks to Huien for hitting my back loads of times during IT lesson today.
(Ouch. Ouch. Ouch. Ouch. OUCH!)
"Wa meng ti~"
Ahahahas.

DDR got outing today [:
So, today, we went to eat PepperLunch, (again,) and ate Chicken Pepper Rice :D



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